RIzmel

Hang In There

2009-08-18T05:02:00.000-07:00

Life affords supreme independence,
At times the world can mean the absolute suffering,
A toddler crying, earth quake or political war,
Can certainly mean destruction.

As the blue skies fade away,
As the nature sobs in disappointment,
This world is starting to cripple in shreds,
Hugely affecting the life of others.

With a moment of despair,
Failure symbolizes dead end for everything,
When love turns into a game,
There is nothing to hold to or believe in.

Only thing that is doable,
May sound unrealistic,
Staying tough would mean a challenge of a life time,
Hanging in there brings a new dimension to humanity.

This poem is specially for those who is out there who is in need of moral support. A failure does not mean the end of the world. Failure is the first step being successful, and it is verifiable. Never giving up would be another one to think about and keep trying for the best. And when this world becomes hell for you, you will be standing tall and hanging in there with great spirit. Insyallah. :D

18th September 2009

2009-08-18T04:46:00.001-07:00

As usual, like any normal day 18th September 2009 looks to be similar. I woke up around 10 in the morning. Went to play golf in RPGC. Not surprisingly, my game wasn't at its best yet, but I'm hitting the ball better. Carded a round of 78 on a tough day of golf. The wind was blowing really hard. It was a sunny day and not shockingly I was sweating profusely.

Okay then I had my breakfast. Ate kuewtiaw goreng, didn't like it that much, but i'm not the type of person who wastes food so much like I used to. I finished it and it was a good encouragement. I was full, went back, had my bath and changed. I had to watch Man United's replay against Birmingham. Well, they weren't convincing enough. They only won 1-o as Wayne Rooney scored. Apa2pun, they won, unlike Liverpool. I was quite delighted for that. Hehe. :P

In the evening, I played the piano. I played Remember When, Winter Sonata, and Love Story. Just looking forward to play better as I have not been playing for months. Just love the sound of the piano. Wooo.. Next I went off to jogging. Sebab banyak orang complain I dah gemuk. The fact of the matter is the truth was certainly opposite. At this moment of time I'm standing around 182cm and weighing 75 kg. It's suitable according to my BMI Index. Apa2 pun, I'm trying to get back my stamina. So went jogging for an hour. Came back around 7, took bath prayed Maghrib.

Now waiting for Isyak, and then will be going for dinner in Casuarina. So, i got 2 go guys. Take care. Chow. Will get back soon. :D

Apa itu Cinta?

2009-08-16T06:36:00.000-07:00

Gambar-gambar di atas memaparkan maksud sebenar cinta. Walaupun bagaimanapun timbul pelbagai persoalan adakan cinta itu semata-mata gambaran, perasaan atau keperluan hidup? Namun begitu, cinta merupakan satu perkara yang mulia. Apakah hidup ini akan lengkap tanpa cinta? Mungkin ya, tetapi kunci kebahagiaan merupakan cinta yang sejati kepada Allah s.w.t, ibu bapa, rakan-rakan dan suami isteri. Cinta bukan hanya perasaan tetapi tanggungjawab, kemahuan dan keinginan untuk mencapai satu tahap kehidupan yang bahagia. Kisah-kisah cinta bermula dengan satu pandangan dan boleh berakhir dengan sekelip mata. Haha itulah kehebatan cinta. Cinta perlu diperteguhkan dan diperkuatkan.

Sesiapa yang di sana yang takut untuk bercinta, kehidupan di dunia ini adalah bagaikan pokok tanpa akarnya dan manusia tanpa kakinya. Oleh yang demikian, bercintalah, dan sentiasa menyampaikan cinta dengan cara yang terbaik. Dan selepas itu kebahagiaan di tangan anda, Insyallah. Salam!

She Has Left !!!

2009-08-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

Well, Julie, or better known as Julianne Rajah has left Malaysia for United States. Haish, my friend I'm missing u a lot here. But well, I'm pretty happy coz u will be furthering ur studies in Drake University. It's a beautiful place. Well, I have never been there, but from what I heard it's really2 beautiful. Haha, well this post is just specially for you, buddy. I got to know u in INTI, now you've left INTI for good. I just wanna say I appreciate every single thing that you have done for me and for those time spent together. It's my pleasure to get to know u. Go rock the place and make Malaysian proud. Oh ya lagi satu, keep up with the squash.. U have fallen in love with the game, and I still remember I would just tell anything to put the game down, but your there to defend it. What a spirit! INTI will be missing u, and I will be as well. Ala, kat US jer, keep in touch. Ingat budak ni yang selalu bully u. :P Chow. Take care. Khuda Hafiz. :D

The Reality of LIfe

2009-08-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

This is what you get when you put urself into that mix of commitment, determination and hard work!

A mom with her daughter! This is life and doesn't get any sweeter than this. Real special.

On a Thursday evening dated June 26th 2009, when a question was asked to me by a friend what is reality of our lives? This question has appeared countless times but I have never tried answering it. However now, I believe I have found the answer, at least that is what I think. It seems that we believe in reality as what our senses can perceive or what our immaterial mind can think off.

Our consciousness simply means our awareness towards every single incident that happens. As I write this with full of emotions and awareness, reality affords us pure happiness when we are able to do great in life, and as we continue to feel it, it is just invincible, the feeling of Nirvana. The reality of life interconnects so much that when you feel happy, you feel that you are at the top of the world, and when we are sad, we feel the effects of our everlasting nightmares. Whatever it is life is about finding equilibrium and to define what is right and wrong.

As I believe strongly in the power of Allah s.w.t, it feels that this world that we live in is just a reward to all of us to cherish our life for the next world, regardless of our beliefs, that is just the reality and we can't change it. An even better example, sometimes we just don't get everything we expect to have, because the fact of the reality is evident, no way we are able to achieve complete perfection.

Every second seems so vital and we cannot afford to lose track but again, we are human beings. The reality is we make mistakes and we will continue to do so till this universe reaches its "expiry date".The continuous motion our life will always be affected by the group of people we love, by what we believe in and by what our sense of perceptions says. in reality the fact of the matter states everything happens for a reason. The way we talk, observe and walk:- It has an actual meaning and purpose to it. It's just for us to find out.

Materialism and determinism have certainly played a big part in our world today. As I'm 19 years old, I stand beside you, we are not merely objects, we are creations of the Inscrutable Creator of God, and we have emotions and this life is a cycle. Although the theory dynamics of energy has stated, the flow of energy is in one direction and not a cycle, but yeah, it happens with the cycle of living things.

What is the purpose of me writing this?? I guess that will be the most evident question. It is simple. I just want to share an experience of a lifetime that this reality of life brings us to a natural standpoint about the world, we have the choice to make the right decisions, say the right things and do what is morally right. It's up 2 us, simply because freedom is real, and it is the reality of our life. With all this I can conclude God is great, he is the ultimate one and the best of the best.

So, I want to convey a simple message, Thank you, Terima Kasih, Syukran and Che che( not sure how to spell, haha). A simple wish to everyone will make our day, and I urged everyone to appreciate the reality of this world. Terima Kasih Semua. :)
Salam. :D

I'm back in Ipoh!

2009-08-15T06:08:00.000-07:00

Well, I'm having 3 weeks break now from college, and seriously I'm really glad that I'm back in my hometown, the place that I was born and the place had left me wondering about those great memories with family and friends.

Yes Ipoh isn't like Kuala Lumpur. It is no where near Kuala Lumpur's hecticness and entertainment. In Kl, I would be more outgoing, but I'm in Ipoh, I'm more laid back. I'll just take my own sweet time to do anything, well that is what semester breaks is for. I'm looking forward to play a lot of golf, and more golf and more golf. Haha, just kidding, and looking forward to go to my school and meet all my teachers and juniors. Those pictures above represent those past memories in Ipoh.

I guess I'm gonna eat a lot as well. Cool got 2 go now. Nak makan jap. I'll be back. Enjoy the pictures above. :)

What do I do ya when life gets really boring??

2009-08-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

Well, hanging out with these amazing and versatile human beings! What more can I say! Miss u guys.

Playing golf competitively and winning!

Just to be with these orphans, they have certainly taught me about life.

!Used to play pool everyday, entering competitions and winning sometimes. Still love the game.

Been playing since the age of 7 till today, it becomes one of my passion. Music keeps me going, and the piano is key to my life. :)

Sometimes I draw, mostly sceneries. Just had the interest and still doing it. Alhamdulillah.

Entertaining crowds and really giving good speeches, u know what I mean. Haha!

Cracking jokes, make others smile and annoy them sometimes. Baru lah hidup berwarna kan!

Playing foosball, not bad actually, and really fun when u can play well.

Hanging out at the mamak, conversing with friends and relaxing!

Well, I enjoy playing badminton and football as well. Just can't find any pictures of me playing those games YET! Well, these pictures simply represent my passion, my interest and hobbies when I'm not busy studying or doing any assignments or acting for a drama. Will keep doing it till my last breath.

Have a nice day guys. :)

Allah Maha Besar

2009-08-14T05:34:00.000-07:00

Kebesaranmu YA Allah dapat dibuktikan dengan gambar2 di atas. Ku hanya hambaMu yang lemah Ya Allah. Turunkan lah hidayah dan petunjuk kepada umatmu supaya kami semua dijauhkan dari azab neraka. Syurgamu kami ingin capai, dan hanya orang yang bijak akan berada di sana. Orang bijak bukan semata-mata pakar ilmuwan tetapi umat yang memikirkanmu Ya Allah dan yang sentiasa mengingati mati.

Subahanallah, Allahuakhbar, dan Alhamdulillah. Amin!

MAIN HOON NA ( I'm Here)

2009-08-14T02:47:00.000-07:00

As far as everyone is concern, I'm here for a purpose. Main Hoo Na !

I'm better than ever before, and will always try to improve myself. So guys out there, who will read this blog, lets share our experiences, limelight, our downfalls or whatever it is, and lets work as humans together.
In the 21st Century, people have actually become materialistic, and like the Charvaka Philosopher, everything in this world is just material and merely physical. I disagree. It's a disgrace that the aspect of humanity is suffering badly. No one cares to say good morning, and no one wants to help others. Haha, it's just sad to see. Well, the decision is for us to make. If we want to change, we can.

So I encourage everyone out there to let's be united and bring back the glory days of humanity and mankind. Let us be human and only human understands the margins of the universe. Watch your words as they become your actions and watch your actions as they become your character. Salam. :)

Main Hoo Na!

Road To The States Begins

2009-08-14T01:42:00.001-07:00

Stanford University, my dream place. It doesn't get any better than this.
Hope that I can get in 2010. :)

INTI UC Nilai, a college that has the best facilities and group of students around. Lucky to be in in it. Thank to JPA!

Who can forget highschool? SMK ANDERSON IPOH! A proud Andersonian, that is what I am.

The destiny of a human being can never be predicted. Same goes for me. I have never had the thought to study in US, and once the chance came presented by Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam ( JPA ), I was never in doubt to where I'm heading to. United States is a wonderful place, and it has the best universities in the world providing the greatest chances for students like me. I took the scholarship, and here I am in INTI UC Nilai for my preparatory course. I didn't like the place at 1st, but yeah I adapted well, and it's certainly an amazing place. Well, I was an Andersonian, from Anderson School, Ipoh. It's is one of the most prestigious school in Malaysia, and I had one hell of a ride in school.

Well, the journey to the States begins right now at the present time. Whether I get into Standford or any of the universities, I have promised myself to work my ass off and have a good life in America. America, here I come. :)

Yasmin Ahmad (1958-2009 )

2009-08-14T01:11:00.000-07:00

A great individual will always be remembered for his/her contribution towards something in life. Same goes for the incomparable Yasmin Ahmad. I have had the chance to meet her in personal and act in some of her telemovies in National TV. Just to be there and witness her great work was just an unbelievable sight. She has always tried to give her best, and make the best of her chances in life. I have played a supporting role in my 1st drama called Adam where she was the co-director. Her work ethic was just amazing and she can be funny sometimes. Once she told me this " An inspired actor will always inspire others to do great." Well, that's true for a fact.

I'm not close to her like any actors out there, but one thing I can say it was pleasure to work with her. I will always remember you for your wise words, and God bless you. Amin!

Salam.

Thank You

2009-08-13T22:20:00.000-07:00

These pictures show a lot ya? Haha, the fact of the matter is that these pictures contain people that is instrumental in my life. Some of them have been there for me in the past, some still with me and will always be with me. I would just like to take this opportunity, I wanna say thank you for all the great memories, the time that we spent to do crazy stuff, in high school, parties, at home and wherever it is. These people are the best I have seen and met so far. Thus I will always remember them. Love you guys dearly, and I'm not complete without you guys. Alhamdulillah I'm blessed by Allah with great companies in life who have taught me new things in life. We have gone through a lot guys and I hope this relationship that I have with you all will last till my last breath.

Budak2 sekalian, remember my advices, and I love you guys so much. My world will be empty without your smiles. Thank you again. For Najwa, I can't find your picture, but you are always in my heart. Thanks ya babe. I'm flying to US soon, and most of us are heading towards our separate ways. Semua pun dah besar2 panjang2 kan. Not to forget I would like to say sorry to everyone for my bad behavior sometimes, and the words I say might be hurtful. Apa pun, I mintak maaf dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki kat you all. Haha, the traditional way of saying sorry. Whatever you guys are doing, do your best, give back to others and always be optimistic about your respective lives.

Now, you guys let me go. LET ME GO! Haha, i will never leave you by the way tapi I nak gi solat jap. Haha. Salam, khuda hafiz, alvida and sayoonara.

Family of A Kind

2009-08-13T08:23:00.000-07:00

Some of us are lucky enough to have a family and be with them, some might not. The fact of the matter is a family means a group people that we have blood relationship with based on a primary relationship. I am very lucky to be with a great and a big family. Well, there is always ups and downs, quarrels, sadness and a moment of happiness, but that is what family is.

Daddy and mummy, thanks for everything that you have done towards me. I can only say that i appreciate and grateful that I have you guys to guide me all the way. That's phenomenal. I love you both. To my sister, Dolly, what can I say, I sometimes annoy you to the max, well I enjoy doing it. Anyway thanks ya sis for everything u have done for me. To matok, she is getting old, and probably she is running out of time. Matok, for the past 19 years, you have always been there for me to take care of me and share religious views with me. Your views will always be respected.

Rizmel sayang matok,and to all my untie's and uncle's just being there, means a lot to me.As far as my cousins are concern, we have always been busy with our own stuff, I just want to say that one day we need to gather and talk for hours. It's been ages since we actually catch up.

Thanks Allah for gifting me a big and happy family. I'm nothing without them. :)

Rizmel sayang kamu semua! :D

You Are Not Alone

2009-08-13T07:22:00.000-07:00

Fresh and ready for the battle,
A battle to succumb to the lure of the darkness,
I stand before the Goddess,
Strongly fighting for true love, and nothing but true love.

Emotions running high,
I deeply seek the path of enlightenment,
To feel Nirvana,
A satisfaction beyond belief.

With all the desire in the love,
Success and true happiness,
Come along in a long list of desires,
Wanting not to be alone stands the greatest.

As I write this with great feeling,
I give myself the opportunity of a lifetime,
Opportunity to be with someone,
I'm not alone and YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Enjoy reading my poem!

Special Feelings

2009-08-13T06:49:00.000-07:00

Jazz music gives me inner peace and makes me calm!

Mr Borges, I want an A for Socio.(Use to rant about that all the time)

Miss his class tough :(

Kita dua nampak mcm adik beradik lah Jimmie. Hahaha!

Being a top student just adds spice to life!

Winning something is just special!!

Nellie, I miss u already! I'll come and get u in Berkeley.

In life, we are always in search of answers, solutions, success and happiness. It's is part of us being humans. A moment of greatness will somehow include hardship, hard work and perseverance. For me, I have always had the perception that whenever I put myself to do something, I will always try give my best. Somehow, there are distractions in life that will stray us away from our priority. According to Sarte, a prominent philosopher, existentialism is what we should. In other words, we shape our own life, our own nature and we are free to determine the way we live. Somehow if that's the case, would it be a disaster for me to do whatever I want, whenever I want regardless of the people around me?

Well, often than never, I would rather follow my principles and guidelines of my religion for me to make the right decisions in life. The way I speak, the way i walk, and the way i approach people certainly symbolizes great demeanor and sheer respect. Well, sometimes, I would just screw up something, and get punished or reprimanded. Well we learn from our mistakes, at least that is what i do.

Winning means a lot of things in the reality of this world. I might have won a few golf competitions, debates, and over a few friendships, and connections with others. A great epitome is when I tee it up and play golf in a competition. I have always believed in myself to get the job done, trust my swing and be mentally focussed. Well, sometimes i win, too bad sometimes I lose. That's part of the game, and part of life. Ultimately what matters most is the effort put to win, and that's a very special feeling, really special. I would sometimes scold myself, and let my anger get over me. I'm still controlling it because I expect myself to do good things in life.

When it comes to relationships with others, family, friends, girlfriends, I have always believed if i'm honest and be truthful, it will be special. The moments with my parents, when I make them smile, it's just unbelievable. It's a commitment of another level. That's when love prevails. My dad has always said, " what makes the world special is not any love, it's love with sincerity and pure honesty." Above are some pictures that i hope can show some great memories that include great emotions.

Thanks.

INTIBALL 2009

2009-08-13T02:51:00.000-07:00

INTIBALL 2009 was a spectacular, exciting and memorable occasion. It was one of the major events of the year in college, and I have to admit, before the prom went on live, it was certainly an intriguing yet interesting prospect. As usual, I have planned to go with my close buddies to the ball. We were up for this event, we intended to have a lot of fun, which we did till the end.

To me it was simply a splendid event as it involved a lot of people, a lot great people to be exact especially students from all over the world including South Africa, China and Indonesia. New friends were made, and close pals became even intimate than ever before. Me, Han, Ei Leen, Winnie, Julianne, Dave and many others were all dressed up for this amazing event. The special thing about that night was everyone looked so beautiful and good looking. Smiling faces were obvious from all angles, and to add to all of that, the food was great. I did not eat as much as I have expected to.

The performances that night was really good. The band who performed that night was just flawless and it seemed to be a momentous and gala occasion as many of the VIP's were there. The setting was just beyond imagination greatly thanks to the hard work of the organizers. We were all hyped up, and there were many couples that night. I had a date of my own, and Winnie I have to say it was just a pleasure to be your date on that night. U looked beautiful, those smile of yours, just mesmerized me. A lot of girls did attract my attention, but yeah I was just more focussed on you. Dancing together and rocking the party we certainly did.

As usual, this prom, like any prom nights I have attended in high school had some great awards. Examples would be Prom King and Prom Queen. Yeah, everyone I believed contended in the running for those awards, and shockingly I was shortlisted and called out to the stage. On stage, I had to introduce myself, catwalk, and act. Well, I told myself, " Let's have fun Rizmel. " I certainly did.

The best yet to come. For the acting part, I had to promote the usage of condom. Oh SHIT!! NOT CONDOMS AGAIN !!!!. Well, I had to do it, and i guess I did pretty well judging from the ovation i got from that night from the crowd. Yeah, I became the Prom King after receiving majority of the votes from the audience. It wasn't that big a deal but, the night ended with a lot of laughters, hugs, kisses, just full of emotions. It was just amazing. Simply Unforgettable.

To all the guys that night, I want to take the opportunity to thank you guys for the special memories. Han, Ei Leen, Winnie, Julianne, Dave, Shern, Khye Theng, Wai Quai, Justin and many more, thanks for everything. We had a lot of fun. That's for sure. :)